picture taken by yours truly at Hakone Japan, the sculpture is called 'Hand of God'
Dancing Lessons for the Occasionally Cynical. Quite a bit to unpack there huh. Writing this "About" is a bit odd in the sense that this is janesh.dev. You're probably looking for a developer called Janesh, but instead stumble upon some dancing lessons. Not just any dancing lessons mind you, but dancing lessons for the occasionally cynical.
First things first, I am Janesh and I am a software developer as the url of the page implies. I work primarily on backend and am interested in distributed systems and building robust software. Currently I work at Elastic Block Store (EBS) in the distributed block storage space. Feel free to check out my LinkedIn if you wish to learn more about my background and what I've been up to!
Phew, now that we got that out of the way, let's get back to the important part, the dancing lessons. My motivation right now with this is to really just get back into the flow of writing and let my mind and ideas flow. As a result many posts may appear to be unrefined, fragmented, and stream of consciousness-ish in general. I could go on about the upsides and downsides of such an approach but I'll leave that up to you to think about, as I suppose with most things, it comes down to personal preference.
I seem to have gotten sidetracked a bit, let's tackle what I hope you've been waiting for, the dancing lessons. Why the dancing lessons, why indeed... Well to start, along the time when I was thinking of a title for this venture, something beyond the 'first name, last name', I encountered a book by the name of "Dancing Lessons for the Advanced in Age". The title drew me in, you don't generally see the advanced in age dancing, much less dancing lessons for them. The novel itself is novel, it is written in a single sentence. 160 pages of an old man who lived for the world's sensual pleasures, telling stories of his life and exploits to a group of sunbathing women.
Now what does this have to do with me, you might ask. Well, when I read this, I started to think of this notion of "Dancing Lessons" as an expression of self. One that is innately vulnerable. In a dance lesson, you have to learn the steps, the rhythms, the flows of the dance. You will make mistakes, but that is part of the vulnerability. Dance, when approached with an open mind (implied by the taking of lessons), requires emotional investment and energy to perform this ritual where you open yourself up to hard criticism to all that are watching. Vulnerability essentially.
In a way, that's what the book is embodying, someone advanced of age, learning to dance, to flow, to release his story, the good, and as he goes along, some of the bad, to an audience. That's what drove me to this idea. Dancing lessons for the Occasionally Cynical.
As for how/why I am cynical, I think that with everything happening in the world, it's nearly impossible for someone with empathy and that is somewhat well versed in current affairs to not fall into cynicism, nihilism, or the ilk. That's also precisely why it can be so hard to dance. To flow through life and live it for what it is while also letting people in.
This is a portion of my current philosophy, my view on things. As a result of that, came this title. As I continue writing, these posts will reflect my perspectives on things ranging from philosophies, tech, culture, music, and whatever else happens to strike my fancy. If you have any comments, questions, or just want to talk, I'm always open. Feel free to drop a DM or a comment! Finally, thanks for reading and I hope you have a wonderful day :).
If you wish to talk/reach out to me, feel free to drop me a line at firstname.lastname@example.org, JaneshChhabra on Messenger, and terebat#0007 on Discord.